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How can I forget him (please read even if it's long)?
This is gonna be pretty long.
I knew this guy. He's my classmate. We started as really good friends until we fell for each other. But we both didn't admit it. Though me and my friends obviously know we both are in love with each other. It was October when we had this mutual feeling. We have our own nicknames and we call each other when we miss each other, sing songs together, and he even gave a necklace with both our names engraved in it. It stopped when my mom took my cellphone this January. I missed him a lot during that time. Fortunately, I got my cp back this March. I texted him first and told him I missed him so much. Yes, I maybe obsessed with him. But he changed. His replies were like 3+ words only. Before, he used to text me first with good mornings, good nights, muahs and is very interested in me. But now, no. He doesn't text me first. I text him first 'cause if I don't, there won't be any conversation and I can't stand having no convos with him. I missed him so much. I asked him if there's any problem, and he said no. Maybe because he's dating a new girl. But he said she was just his crush, nothing more. Then, March 25, I was just relaxing in my room, thinking of ways how to forget him (because finally I saw them together with his "crush") suddenly he texted me first! I was happy to see his messages. He asked me if am I really gonna transfer to another school and I said yes (though I really won't) and he was so worried! Sicky worried! He said he even cried when he listened to my voice on his cp knowing that I will be leaving him. Before the night ends, he confessed! He told me he loves me so much. He just didn't have the guts to tell me and tried to forget me. But now, he said he will confess before I'll "leave" him. He asked me if I feel the same, and I said yes. I couldn't let him go. So he courted me. We're MU that time. We text each other, saying I love you and even made promises that we won't love someone else. I didn't say yes yet because I want him to wait even longer and talk to me in person, not on text. And he said, YEP I will wait for you. And yeah, he waited. But May came, and we have no communication for like 2 weeks because I was on vacation, and when I came back, I noticed, he became cold again. He doesn't text me or even tell me he missed me ('cause he usually tells me that). Doesn't he know that I'm dying during the vacation because we don't text each other? :( He simple says,"Yeah." " No, not really." "Yep, I'm awake now." like really SLOW REPLIES WITH VERY SHORT MESSAGES. There then, I knew there was a problem. He's slowly fading. Though he still tells me some sweet things. He continues to become cold. Then, just this Monday, I asked him if he's doing good and he said yes. And as a joke, I asked him, if I would say NO to you, do you already have someone to replace me? I thought he'd say "No, you're my one and only..blaah" He said "My crush, Euneka". I FELT SO SMALL WHEN HE SAID THAT. And then I said, you love her? He said No, I haven't loved anyone. LIKE WHAT? What about the words he told me before? The I love you so much texts? I cried a lot when he said that. Tuesday, I called him. I talked to him. I frankly told him what I felt. I told him, were those just empty promises and words? I thought you'd wait for me. You knew I loved you so much. I felt like crying while talking to him and he ended the call suddenly. I tried calling him again and again but he won't accept. He told me that he can't stand talking to me, listening to me that I felt so weak. He explained and finally told me that his love faded away. He avoided loving me. Why? Because he said that he's not yet ready and he doesn't want to hurt if we'll have a relationship. I told him, I knew it. I knew you don't love me anymore. But why didn't you tell me right away? I never should've hope that you'll wait for me. And he sincerely said sorry. I can't stand talking to him so I told him, let's just forget about this and restart all over again. Let's both pretend that we don't have feelings. He said he still has a crush on me, but his feelings for Euneka is higher than mines. T_T I cried again when he said that. Now, we don't have much communication, but he told me to text him anytime I want. I really should give up and find someone else, but I can't. I love him. I'm used to having him here beside me. And I always feel like crying 'cause he's in love with someone else already. That girl he's texting and caring and loving should be me. :( I want to forget him but I can't. I'm always like this. It takes years for me to move on. 'Cause when I fall in love, it's gonna take time to forget what I feel. But now, I think I really have to. I feel so dumb and path
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